Even if you don't know who I am..

The MEME.

2008-04-27T02:16:42Z

  Dear dakara_zhang,

I don't know how to tell you this, but I dislike you. I think I realized it last year in your closet, and I saw you sit at
My fart balloon. I'm sure you're ashamed enough to understand that Santa doesn't exist. I'm returning your ring to you, but i'll keep your collection of butterflies as a memory. You should also know that I never forgot the incarnation as an Eskimo.
        Greetings to your freaky family,
                glxicy <3

The MEME:
Dear (the person who last commented on your journal). I don't really know how to tell you this, but ___1___. I think I realized it ___2___ ___3___, and I saw you ___4___ ___5___. I'm sure you're ___6___ enough to understand ___7___. I'm returning ___8___ to you, but I'll keep ___9___ as a memory. You should also know that I ___10___ ___11___.
___12___, -your name- <3.

1. What's the color of your shirt?
Blue - Our romance is over
Red - Our affair is over
White - I'll join the monastery
Black - I dislike you
Green - Our horoscope doesn't match
Grey - You're a pervert
Yellow - I'm selling myself
Pink - Your nostrils are insulting
Brown - The mafia wants you
No shirt - You're a loser
Other - I'm in love with your sister

2. Which is your birth month?
January - That night
February - Last year
March - When your dwarf bit me
April - When I tripped on sesame seeds
May - First of May
June - When you put cuffs on me
July - When I threw up
August - When I saw the shrunken head
September - When we skinny dipped
October - When I quoted Santa
November - When your dog ran amok
December - When I changed tennis shoes

3. Which food do you prefer?
Tacos - In your apartment
Pizza - In your camping car
Pasta - Outside of Chicago
Hamburgers - Under the bus
Salad - As you ate enchilada
Chicken - In your closet
Kebab - With Paris Hilton
Fish - In women's clothing
Sandwiches - At the Hare Krishna graduation
Lasagna - At the mental hospital
Hot dog - Under a state of trance
Other - With George Bush and his wife

4. What's the color of your socks?
Yellow - Hit on
Red - Insult
Black - Ignore
Blue - Knock out
Purple - Pour syrup on
White - Carve your initials into
Grey - Pull the clothes off
Brown - Put leeches on
Orange - Castrate
Pink - Pull the toupee off
Barefoot - Sit at
Other - Drive out

5. What's the color of your underwear?
Black - My best friend
White - My father
Grey - Bill Clinton
Brown - My fart balloon
Purple - My mustard soufflé
Red - Donald Duck
Blue - My avocado plant
Yellow - My pen pal in Ghana
Orange - My Kid Rock-collection
Pink - Manchester United's goalkeeper
None - My John F. Kennedy-statue
Other - The crazy monk

6. What do you prefer to watch on TV?
Scrubs - Man
O.C. - Emotional
One Tree Hill - Open
Heroes - Frostbitten
Lost - High
House - Scarred
Simpsons - Cowardly
The news - Mongolic
Idol - Masochistic
Family Guy - Senile
Top Model - Middle-class
Other - Ashamed

7. Your mood right now?
Happy - How awful I've felt
Sad - How boring you are
Bored - That Santa doesn't exist
Angry - That your pimples are at the last stage
Depressed - That we're cousins
Excited - That there is no solution to this.
Nervous - The middle-east
Worried - That your Honda sucks
Apathetic - That I did a sex-change
Ashamed - That I'm allergic to your hamster
Cuddly - That I get turned on by garbage men
Overjoyous - That I'm open
Other - That Extreme Home Makeover sucks

8. What's the color of your walls in your bedroom?
White - Your ring
Yellow - Your love letters
Red - Your Darth Vader-poster
Black - Your tame stone
Blue - The couch cushions
Green - The pictures from LA
Orange - Your false teeth
Brown - Your contact book
Grey - Our matching snoopy-bibs
Purple - Your old lottery coupons
Pink - The cut toenails
Other - Your memories from the military service

9. The first letter of your first name?
A/B - Your photo
C/D - The oil stocks
E/F - Your neighbor Martin
G/H - My virginity
I/J - The results of blood-sample
K/L - Your left ear
M/N - Your suicide note
O/P - My common sense
Q/R - Your mom
S/T - Your collection of butterflies
U/V - Your criminal record
W/X - David's tricot outfits
Y/Z - Your grades from college

10. The last letter in your last name?
A/B - Always will remember
C/D - Never will forget
E/F - Always wanted to break
G/H - Never openly mocked
I/J - Always have felt dirty before
K/L - Will tell the authorities about
M/N - Told in my confession today about
O/P - Was interviewed by the Times about
Q/R - Told my psychiatrist about
S/T - Get sick when I think of
U/V - Always will try to forget
W/X - Am better off without
Y/Z - Never liked

11. What do you prefer to drink?
Water- Our friendship
Beer - Senility
Soft drink - A new life as a clone
Soda - The incarnation as an Eskimo
Milk - The apartment building
Wine - Cocaine abuse
Cider - A passionate interest for mice
Juice - Oprah Winfrey imitations
Mineral water - Embarrassing rash
Hot chocolate - Eggplant-fetishism
Whisky - To ruin the second world war
Other - To hate the Boston Celtics

12. To which country would you prefer to go on a vacation?
Thailand - Warm regards
USA - Best regards
England - Good luck on your short-term leave from jail
Spain - Go and drown yourself
China - Disgusting regards
Germany - With ease
Japan - Go burn
Greece - Your everlasting enemy
Australia - Greetings to your frog Leonard
Egypt - Fuck off now
France - In pain
Other - Greetings to your freaky family

Random..fic

2008-03-19T05:18:53Z

Like the title says, this is a random fic.
I wasn't going to use these two names cuz i know people will come after me with pitchforks,
but my friend suggested Micky and Junsu so here it is...
(...i think this will be my last time writing something like this. seriously.)

Warning: creepiness. I take no responsibility if you're feeling the chills.

Sometimes it's okay to let go.

One day,
we'll embrace and die..

"You're home! I was just cleaning out the closet for you." Micky says as he runs up to Junsu and hugs him tightly. He closes his eyes and buries his face in Junsu’s hair, murmuring, "I miss you every second of the day..."

"Su~ I'll help you take a bath, okay?” Micky tsks lightly, “Now, now, I’m not a pervert!” He reaches to adjust the taps. “How does that feel, comfortable? Our Junsu needs to be squeaky clean!" In the bathtub, Micky tilts Junsu's head and smiles at him. "You should smile more, you look pretty when you smile... do that dolphin laugh for me! Eukyangkyang~!"

"Your hair's so smooth and silky! I love it~" Micky combs Junsu's hair for him, watching the two of them in the mirror.

"Look at your hands, Susu! They're so pretty and soft!" Micky sits on the sofa, clipping Junsu's nails. The T.V. blares the newest MVs of popular singers, but is ignored by the both of them.

"Susu, come and help me set the table, I cooked your favorites!" At the dining table, an eager Micky lights candles. He piles the different dishes onto Junsu’s plate, and waits for him to try them. "Is it yummy? I’m a good cook, aren’t I?"

"Ah, give me another pose! Tilt your head~ You're just so photogenic, Su!" Micky holds the camera and the non-stop click of the shutter fills the room. 'You're the cutest dolphi-- person I've ever seen!”

(There is never a reply)

In an old darkroom..

Micky takes out the newly developed films and looks at them carefully,

suddenly, his hands let go of the pictures and lets them scatter all over the floor.

The Junsu in the pictures,

is just

a corpse.

A corpse that is being held up by red strings to make different poses.

Micky is cleaning the closet.

“One, two, three, oh gosh they’re all Junsu’s clothes! They all look so nice…”

“But why… what happened to the owner of these clothes? Where did he go? WHERE?”

Micky kicks the pile of clothes and rips them apart,

“ I need to burn them… yes, burn them….”

"Su~ I’ll help you take a bath okay?”

At the side of the bathtub, Micky helps Junsu who is lying in the tub rub his shoulder.

"You should smile more, you look pretty when you smile.”
“But why aren’t you smiling? Why? I asked you why aren’t you smiling?!”

Micky dumps all of the shower gel left in the bottle onto Junsu.

"Your hair's so smooth and silky! I love it~"

In front of a mirror, Micky combs Junsu's hair for him

“Why aren’t you replying me? Raise your head, I SAID RAISE YOUR HEAD!”

Micky mumbles to himself as he grabs Junsu’s chin and smudges red lipstick on him.

"Look at your hands, Susu! They're so pretty and soft!"

Micky sits on the sofa, clipping Junsu's nails.

“Why is this happening? Why are they falling? WHY?”

The so-called ‘nails’ turned black ages ago and are falling off.

"Susu, come and help me set the table, I cooked your favorites!"

"Is it yummy? I’m a good cook, aren’t I?"
“Crap, I told you to eat it, EAT IT!”

Micky pries open Junsu’s mouth and stuffs a bunch of newspaper inside.

“Eat it…eat… why… why is this happening….”

Already insane, Micky drops the newspaper,

and holds on to Junsu.

In just one day,

a loved one..

turned into a cold, rotting corpse.

“Junsu-ah, didn’t we agree on spending the rest of our lives together?

why did you leave first? you didn’t even tell me.. what should I do?”

“No, I don’t believe it.. “

“I miss you.. I love you… come back to me…”

“…Su?”

Micky accidentally pushes open the door of a room,

he sees Junsu sitting near the window,

“Is it really you?”

“Let’s take a picture okay? I’ll set the timer.”

“Ready? Here we go, put your arms around me! One, two, three, smile!”

- -
edited by dakara_zhang

Kim Jaejoong~

2008-03-07T01:24:16Z

a biography of Kim Jaejoong.
its so touching.. i love it~
written by dakara_zhang
credits to DBSKer because dakara used it as reference.

Several years ago, somewhere in South Korea, a boy, barely fifteen, leaves the small town he has lived in for all of his life. He says goodbye to his family, and the sound of their tears don’t cause him to turn back, because he knows he'll lose his courage if he does. He gets on a train headed for Seoul, the big, glamorous city he’s only heard about. He’s scared, frightened, but determined all the same. His name is Kim Jaejoong, and he’s chasing his dreams. He’s my hero, and this is his story.

Kim Jaejoong was born on January 26^th, 1986. He was raised in the countryside by his loving, adopted parents and eight elder sisters. His fondest dream was to be a famous and respected singer; to have his name remembered and recognized. With hard work and perseverance, this dream would come true. And it all started when he stepped off the train, looked at the huge, foreign city that was Seoul, and asked himself, “Can I really find my place here?” But he knew himself, and he knew that he would never forgive himself if he turned back now. He found himself a tiny apartment to call home, and prepared himself for an audition to the biggest entertainment company in Korea. He knew he was tone deaf, but he practiced and practiced. When he sang for the judges, his voice was filled with emotion, touching everyone in the room. It was a voice that drew you in, made you want to lose yourself and listen forever…only it was too soft, and too weak. But he won. They chose him for his pretty face, which they said was made to be in entertainment. He signed a seven year contract; he would pay for his lessons for the first two years, and afterwards, if he made it, he would begin training to debut as a singer. Knowing that his family was not well off, he promised himself that he would make it on his own.

The next two years would contain some of the hardest times he would have to face. He put money for tuition before other necessities, and took on three part time jobs to pay for his lessons. Delivering stacks of newspapers at the crack of dawn, manual labour at construction sites, walking three hours to a waitressing job after his lessons; all for the day when everything would be worth it. But even so, he didn’t have enough money for three meals a day. Once, running a high fever, he drags himself through the three hour walk to his restaurant job, and on the way back spots a blood donating booth. Having not eaten for days, he feels he has no other choice; he receives money for donating blood and buys the cheapest pack of crackers he can find. Eventually he gets through the two years, and the company puts him into a group with four other boys. The band name has been determined: Dong Bang Shin Ki. The Chinese characters are 東方神起, and it means “Gods Rising from the East”. The five will live together, practice together, and, the company tells them, they will be something together. When the time comes to choose a stage name, he is at a loss. The others have already chosen their own, and all of them are meaningful, their hopes and dreams summarized in a name. Their manager takes him to a fortune teller; the woman chooses ‘Youngwoong’, meaning ‘Hero’. It will bring you to great places, she tells him. And so Kim Jaejoong became Youngwoong Jaejoong.

Their first single, despite having only two songs on it, tops the charts. Fan letters increase day by day, and he feels like all his troubles are over. But it’s not. The first time they hold a fan meeting, not one of the fans line up in front of him. As his heart shatters, he wonders what he has done wrong. When he reads posts online, he finds out that they are jealous of his looks, and he laughs in relief. He refuses to give up, but each performance adds pressure until he feels like a vase about to break. He starts to watch every smile and word in front of the camera. But he’s being so cold the company considers switching him out. It’s only his fans, who boycotted the company against it, and his band members, who did everything they could to prevent it, that he stayed a part of the band. He’s grateful, and works ever harder, cherishing every moment as he fulfills his dream. It’s during a rehearsal that he falls. He thinks that it’s normal to fall when you dance, but his knee hurts so much that the other members notice, and carry him to the hospital. He finds out that he needs major surgery. Even so, two days after the operation, he shows up at their performance, and lies that he feels fine, biting his lip and drawing blood rather than crying. When he finally recovers, he celebrates with his friends. On the drive back, he is arrested for drinking and driving. For two weeks he is kept in silence; he knows that the other members are begging the company to let him stay. He insists on apologizing, and for the first time, he cries in front of everyone. They tell him he is forgiven, and from this he finds the strength to carry on.

Kim Jaejoong is someone who never gives up no matter what the obstacle is; something as small as forgiveness is all the faith he needs to continue. After all of his hardships and suffering, his dream became realized. He’s a member of one of the most popular groups in Asia, loved for his perseverance, passion for music and beautiful voice, someone who isn’t afraid to face his mistakes. He may not have saved a lot of people, but his story inspires people who were too afraid to reach for their dreams. Despite everything he was able to make his dream come true, because “underneath, lies the soul of a true hero”.

i'm not good with words.

2008-02-08T06:54:19Z

Wherever you go
whoever you meet
you can deny it
but I know.
- - - - - - - - - - - - - -

i dont know what to say.
i dont feel like i need to repeat what dara already said.
did you know i cried when i read her entry?
what would you have said if i told you?
a '*pat pat*', a 'its okay' or possibly a '^^"'?
im sure its all pretty straight forward.
i can't form words from my feelings.
i dont know how to draw a picture from my feelings.
"a friend is someone who knows the song in your heart & can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words."
so, sing it back to me.
no, i dont mean actual singing.

im not trying to divide us apart
im trying to point out something.
why are you standing so far away,
why are you walking off like that?
was the example of you walking off today,
the way its all going to end in the future?

honestly,
what do i know about you now?
when was the last proper conversation we had,
that you werent trying to avoid the topic,
or hide how you really felt?

we're not criticizing you
we're not accusing you
this isnt the first time we've talked about this,
so, do you really understand?
if you do, how come you treat us the same every time?
just so you know,
we're staying.
we love you,
we're holding on with everything we have.
but being the pessimist i am,
i have to say,
everything has its limits.
we do too.

i know im being selfish
i admit im jealous
but we're not on here writing this just because we're not being placed number 1 on your list.
we dont care if you dont spend as much time with us anymore
we dont care if he's no.1 on your list. really, we dont.
but we care how you treat us.
we dont have to be unhappy only when we're being insulted.
we dont have to be unhappy only when we're being left out.
we're unhappy because we're not being heard.
we're unhappy because our opinions & thoughts are completely ignored.
if we're wrong; if you really do know,
maybe we just misunderstood.
just maybe. because when two people, dara & i, and possibly betsuni, are feeling the same thing,
unlikely we're misinterpreting something.

Your feelings have changed, and they won’t come back today
its okay, take your time. we dont expect you to change in one day.
infact, we dont expect you to change at all. you may wish to do whatever you want, its your life.
but what we expect, as best friends,
is that you please take the time to think about what we've both written.
just thinking is enough. im satisfied.

i apologize for sounding harsher.
i feel like i either need to just lightly say it,
or make a long lasting impression.

You can aslo choose to ignore this whole entry whatsoever
just because im having one of those emo moments.

DOWNLOADS

2008-01-26T06:07:06Z

[ MUSIC DOWNLOADS! ]
if you're taking any links. please credit because i uploaded all these myself.

A

Anyband - Single
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B

Bae Seul Ki The 1st Volume
DOWNLOAD HERE

Flying
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Big Bang's Japanese debut album - For the World
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BIG BANG - Always (1st mini album)
DOWNLOAD HERE
or here (savefile)

Big Bang - Hot Issue (2nd mini album)
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Big Bang - Since 2007 (1ST ALBUM)
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Big Bang - The first single volume (1st single)
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Big bang - Big Bang is V.I.P (2nd single)
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Big Bang - B I G B A N G 0 3 (3rd single)
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BIG BANG - 1ST LIVE CONCERT
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BIG BANG - LIES [MV]
download here

BIG BANG - DIRTY CASH [MV]
download here

Battle - Crash (1st single)
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Battle - Tell Me (Malhae) - 2nd single
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Big Bang - 2nd live concert Great
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C

D

DBSK - Rising Sun
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DBSK 1st Japanese album (Heart, Mind and Soul)
note: i dont have rising sun in jap
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DBSK - The 2nd Asia Tour Concert 'O'
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DBSK/Tohoshinki 3rd japanese album released on 23.01.2008
download:
CD 1
CD 2

DBSK/THSK - Five in the black
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E

Epik High - Map of the Human soul
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Epik High - High Society
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Epik High - Swan Songs
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Epik High - Black Swan Songs
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Epik High - Remapping the human soul
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Epik High - Pieces part one
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F

FT Island - cheerful sensibility (1st album)
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or HERE

FT Island - The Refreshment
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G

Girls' Generation - Girls' Generation (Vol.1)
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H

I

Ivy - A Sweet Moment
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J

K

kangta & vanness
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Kingone (王传一) - Love / Why why love
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Kim Ji Eun - Rain
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L

Lee Seung Gi - Story of Separation
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M

N

O

P

Q

R

Rain - Its Raining
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Rain - Eternal Rain
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Rain - Rain's World
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S

SM TOWN WINTER 2007
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SuperJunior05 (TWINS) - Debut album
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Super Junior - U (Single)
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Super Junior T - Rokkuguh
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Super Junior KRY
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Super Junior - Don't Don (2007)
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Se7en - Se7olution
*missing #9 - im sorry (<- title of song)*
DOWNLOAD HERE

SS501 - 1st Single
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SS501 - 2nd Single
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SS501 - 1st volume S.T01 Now
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T

TRAX - Cho-u
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U

V

W

Wheesung - Vol.5 - Eternal Essence Of Music
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Y

Younha - Comet - Vol 1.5
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Z

April 26 - EPIK HIGH. <3

EPIK HIGH - 5TH ALBUM - PIECES PART ONE

[gL] Gakuen London no Icy.

2008-01-26T05:13:58Z

okay, so my greatest friend of all, convinced me to join livejournal.
reasons? lyrics.
honestly, what will i do without lyrics?
probably sulk in a corner & drawing circles..
:) i can now use this to rant on and on about how boring my day is,
anyway,
tata~

- icy

AHHHHH he's so cute.. <3